Monday, March 9, 2015

A Few Thoughts

September. The last time I posted anything on my sweet little blog. I think about her every day. It's so strange, this emptiness I feel when I think about how long it's been since I've written anything. I miss it so much.

I had someone tell me not too long ago that if I really wanted to do something I'd find a way to do it, but with writing/blogging, I'm not sure that's necessarily true. It takes so much time and effort to create a post, and most days I just don't have the energy. I've gone back to work part time three days a week, so now my time is stretched even more.

There are so many things I want to write about. I've just come back from a mission trip to Thailand. What??? THAILAND! It was the first time I'd been out of the country since Australia. And was just as amazing.

Sound man is still healing from cancer. Still. Pain is a way of life for him now, but he does his best to hide it from everyone, including me, but I'm on to him. I see the secret grimaces, the nonchalant way he holds his arm, the quiet shake of the meds bottle. It's a journey the doctor has told him he might be on from here on out. It's so very hard to watch, knowing I can't fix it. We pray daily to the One who can, and if He so chooses, He will either heal or allow the pain to be glory for Himself. Either way, my precious husband is willing to go down the path.

Even in the midst of the pain, he still does amazing things for me. I have a beautiful new kitchen because he wanted to surprise me when I came home from Thailand. Y'all. It is beautiful. Oh, it's not huge now with all the bells and whistles, but it's beautiful. I look in there and almost come to tears knowing how much love was poured into it, not only by my husband but by my amazing, now-15-year-old (FIFTEEN!) son. AND wonderful friends who love me very much. I can't thank them enough.

I know, I know, pictures, you want pictures!

It'll come. For now, I just wanted to write.

Okay, I lied. Here's one pic, just to tease you.